Get an entire grip on yourself: sadness & the art of keeping yourself in “check”

  1. I said “goodbye” to my “home school” of seven years, and all the students therein. (Reminded myself “goodbyes” and change are normal and healthy.)
  2. I got infusions: Lupron, Excheva. (Reminded myself that they might make me feel like shit, but they might also save my life.)
  3. I am in the middle of an Ibrance cycle. (Same as above: feel like shit, but possibly life saving.)
  4. I was suddenly, unexpectedly, disillusioned by “the program” I’ve been overzealously involved in for 70-some odd days. (Take a lesson: humans will disappoint, they always somehow do; grab what you learned and run.)
  5. I have felt tired from being a cancer patient who traveled a lot, and didn’t sleep or eat enough. (Duh.)
Perhaps the wisest song ever sung and the worst video ever made. Some songs just don’t need videos.
Spotify is highly judgmental. Look at this morning’s playlist. Also, who ever said I like Cinderella?
I still see Hillary’s “Benghazi Face” in my mind’s eye on a regular basis. Her face is the face of every intelligent woman on the planet who is so tired of this bullshit.
This was taken in my apartment in Chicago. Circa 2008. Simpler times, or as my sister and I would say, “Schimpler times.”
RIP Paul Mooney. One of the funniest fuckers I’ve ever seen on television. And yes, I agree with him.




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Educator, essayist, feminist, human.

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